Thursday, June 28, 2012

So close

In two weeks I will be full term. Someone please tell me how to slow this down! My due date is 5 weeks away, and of course he could come early or late. I'm just so not ready for this. I want to keep him in my belly forever, where he's safe and happy and healthy. I am not at peace with this anymore. I just want to slow down time and have more kicks and punches and ultrasounds. I should be happy and excited to meet him, but instead I find myself wanting to wait because hello will mean goodbye. I am not ready for goodbye.

We had our monthly ultrasound today. Peter is getting much bigger. He's still very small for his gestational age but has gained over a pound since my last visit, making him approximately 2lbs and 12 ounces. He could easily be under 6 pounds at birth. I guess it all depends on when he decides to make his appearance. I have a few hats for him but I want to start on a new one. I would love to make one with doggie ears (I got him a little brown and orange romper with a dog!) but that might be beyond my crocheting abilities.

Julie loves talking to Peter, feeling him move, hugging my belly. She is definitely attached to him. Prayers for her to have peace would be very appreciated. Actually I could use a big, fat dose of peace right now, too, if you could throw my name in on that prayer.

Blessings to you all,

1 comment:

  1. I found this reading so comforting during my time of mourning. I hope it helps you too:

    1 Peter 1:3-9

    Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
    who in his great mercy gave us a new birth to a living hope
    through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,
    to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading,
    kept in heaven for you
    who by the power of God are safeguarded through faith,
    to a salvation that is ready to be revealed in the final time.
    In this you rejoice, although now for a little while
    you may have to suffer through various trials,
    so that the genuineness of your faith,
    more precious than gold that is perishable even though tested by fire,
    may prove to be for praise, glory, and honor
    at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
    Although you have not seen him you love him;
    even though you do not see him now yet you believe in him,
    you rejoice with an indescribable and glorious joy,
    as you attain the goal of faith, the salvation of your souls.